Thursday, June 26, 2008
of conflitcs..
what is right and what is wrong? our society dictates the rules of righteousness, our parents preach them, our religions decide them. and we follow. many times, we face a thin border between the dos and donts. maybe its just temptations, impulse or the supposed evil part of our mind that forces us to cross the line..v justify it later on grounds of circumstances in life.. we pacify ourselves and sometimes give a damn about the comments of the society. life's too short, i live the way i want. no one can tell me otherwise types..yet in some rare moments, we wonder, was that wrong? am i really doing the right thing? should i change? can i change? what if not? its always there..this tiny shade of doubt, guilt..burried under thousand other wants and desires..how many of us address it and face it, this jury within ourselves? is this a type of courage too? i know there is not a living soul that has walked this planet with absolutely no blemishes or acts of the wrong. as we age, so does this burden ..keeps gaining weight.The falsities that every man projects to the world yet fearing to face the facts within him..This makes me appreciate how blissful and peaceful infancy is , v can even say its the purest period of ones life..
Sunday, June 15, 2008
A nowhere quest
I came across this article while surfing randomly.
http://is.gd/xHW
Its really a fascinating read..like real version of reel movies. But is this really necessary??
Human curiosity always drives him to lurk into any mystery that catches his fancy. and it does result in outstanding discoveries..But this is a bit far-fetched considering the wastage of time and money involved in the project. I wonder if they have thought what they are to do when they finally produce some erratic version of dinosaur..maybe a real Jurassic Park??
To know that this effort when used in productive causes like finding a cure for AIDS perhaps, may help millions of people and yet waste it to recreate a past that is best to be undisturbed makes us clearly see the flaw in human nature- a senseless creature with a 6th sense .
http://is.gd/xHW
Its really a fascinating read..like real version of reel movies. But is this really necessary??
Human curiosity always drives him to lurk into any mystery that catches his fancy. and it does result in outstanding discoveries..But this is a bit far-fetched considering the wastage of time and money involved in the project. I wonder if they have thought what they are to do when they finally produce some erratic version of dinosaur..maybe a real Jurassic Park??
To know that this effort when used in productive causes like finding a cure for AIDS perhaps, may help millions of people and yet waste it to recreate a past that is best to be undisturbed makes us clearly see the flaw in human nature- a senseless creature with a 6th sense .
Wednesday, June 11, 2008
A book beyond imaginations - Eragon series
It has been a month since I read the book Eragon by chance but I am still under the spell of Christopher Paolini's enchanting magic cast through his 2 books. I can hardly wait for Brisingr to be released now. So, what is it about this book that has made countless like myself mad about it? Firstly,I would say it is the setting- dragons, riders, elves, drawfs, middle earth land types, sorcerers and the list goes on. On the first read one may find it a stereotypical Lord of the Rings copy but it is definitely not so. The Next beautiful aspect of this book is the writing. The words take the readers right into mystical dragon worlds till they would argue its authencity against every logical minded person dismissing the idea as childish and frivolous. For someone who is addicted to the fantasy world where nothing is impossible, I was so immersed in the story that I sat up debating with some of my irritatingly logical and sensible friends on how the concept is real, more real than their idea of real worlds. The characters especially the protagonist has more of flaws which makes it more realistic and interesting. I loved the parts where Eragon struggles with his futile attempts to master sword fighting and the lives of the ant explained by his mentor. We can discover a lot more than fiction if we read carefully through the lines and the language used to describe simple settings like a night sky is just brilliant. Moreover this sort of mythical stories invokes the hidden sense of imagination and absurd in all alike, helps us visualise and appreciate impossible things in a perfectly logical way. We develop the bent of mind to explore the sleeping Neverlands within us and what more than a beautiful story to cheer us in this mundane world of numbers and logic?
ps: please do not see the movie that is made out of this priceless piece of art. It not only rips the life of the book but also successfully shatters the wondrous fascination and destroys the beauty of the characters. It is absolutely a curse on the theme of magic.
ps: please do not see the movie that is made out of this priceless piece of art. It not only rips the life of the book but also successfully shatters the wondrous fascination and destroys the beauty of the characters. It is absolutely a curse on the theme of magic.
Sunday, May 18, 2008
A Summer of Work
This Summer adds itself to my 'list of firsts' as I am spending it productively for the first time in my life. No more whiling away time with all day naps or watching boring programs in a set top box - less cable connection and sinking into the deapths of vettiness all the while desparetely searching for anything that is not boring to do. Well, its been so good so far, with an interesting assignment and a no time for vetti jobs period.Just into week 2 of my stint, I have discoverd a lot more about work life...
1. I am completely physically drained out by each evening even though I couldn't think of any considerable input I had made for the day.
2. The long forgotten pain of waking up at 8 am every morning is an absolute torture.
3.Friday nites ,especially is simply a magic symbolysing the beginning of the short term freedom, a period of absolute bliss
4.My college life is now joined to the list of my happiest days of life.
5. A job with facing comps all day brings about a reformation so great that I have quit fiddeling with my comp in my free time or even watching movies and rediscovered the magic of books.
6. Lying in bed with a book bcomes one of the rare pleasures I treat myself to whenver I can.
No wonder people become staid after they join in the work mill.It feels like travelling on a never ending stretch of a land extending far into space and time until we lose all our strength to go forward anymore. I guess watching my dad come back from work everyday for the past 18 years with the same expression on his face popped this thought into me..Nevertheless, I believe its upto us to turn our own career moor into a colourful scenary with mountains and waterfalls to explore every day. After all, its better to do nothing than to do something you don't love brilliantly well. Hence my new goal : become an undercover tech investigator. Well, what's life, if u don't risk it and relish every moment by living on the edge!
1. I am completely physically drained out by each evening even though I couldn't think of any considerable input I had made for the day.
2. The long forgotten pain of waking up at 8 am every morning is an absolute torture.
3.Friday nites ,especially is simply a magic symbolysing the beginning of the short term freedom, a period of absolute bliss
4.My college life is now joined to the list of my happiest days of life.
5. A job with facing comps all day brings about a reformation so great that I have quit fiddeling with my comp in my free time or even watching movies and rediscovered the magic of books.
6. Lying in bed with a book bcomes one of the rare pleasures I treat myself to whenver I can.
No wonder people become staid after they join in the work mill.It feels like travelling on a never ending stretch of a land extending far into space and time until we lose all our strength to go forward anymore. I guess watching my dad come back from work everyday for the past 18 years with the same expression on his face popped this thought into me..Nevertheless, I believe its upto us to turn our own career moor into a colourful scenary with mountains and waterfalls to explore every day. After all, its better to do nothing than to do something you don't love brilliantly well. Hence my new goal : become an undercover tech investigator. Well, what's life, if u don't risk it and relish every moment by living on the edge!
Thursday, May 1, 2008
The wall with the view
"Good Morning" greets the soft streams of yellow,
To the gentle breeze, fresh with mist.
Next begins the song of the tiny blue birds,
Welcoming the dawn with their dainty true words.
As I wake up with my heart full of pleasure,
To the magnificent magic of the morning sounds,
From my usual seat on the high terrece wall, I view,
Enraptured at the sight of the rising red king.
A huge sigh escapes from a longing soul,
The picture snaps shut with the elevator knoll,
Turning back from the CL balcony, burdened with quests,
Of solving innumerable tests..
My heart yearns for the wall with the view,
I console myself with poems of long lost loves in lieu.
To the gentle breeze, fresh with mist.
Next begins the song of the tiny blue birds,
Welcoming the dawn with their dainty true words.
As I wake up with my heart full of pleasure,
To the magnificent magic of the morning sounds,
From my usual seat on the high terrece wall, I view,
Enraptured at the sight of the rising red king.
A huge sigh escapes from a longing soul,
The picture snaps shut with the elevator knoll,
Turning back from the CL balcony, burdened with quests,
Of solving innumerable tests..
My heart yearns for the wall with the view,
I console myself with poems of long lost loves in lieu.
The art of mugging
After spendind 2 yrs at the kingdom of mugging, I have successfully picked up a few tips on how to mug at last min fr the xams.. For those who are not familiar with the term mugging, it is tenting in the library 27/7 before the finals , robotically studying an alien subject with a tiny hope of passing the xam. Its a very challenging and complicated process that is highly taxing but makes one learn that there are some things in life that can only be left freee.. To xplain further, this is how it goes:
1. waste time choosing the " best " place to study which usually means goin around entire campus with a 4 kg back pack before suffereing from a back ache and settling down at a random useless place.
2. place issue over. 1 hr gone.. too tired to delve into studies now..so, open laptop - check mails ---> check orkut , facebook --->look at latest gossips, friends' albums etc.. 2 hrs productively spent. (at the worst case, some with a creative bent even write blogs about mugging then..)
3. BREAK OVER! come the studyings...open lecture notes, books reluctantly, stare stupidly at it for half hour, verify portions, stare stupidly for some more time and realise u ve become a dumb ass .noooooooooooooooooo.
4. open the gtalk (the one place where the entire cohort hangs around) and bitch about the subject, xams, NUS, singapore, life to evry online character.
5. become too much stressed ..u r freaking out..need a break desparately..open youtube, watch any videos- good, bad, ugly..still not satisfied ..move to sitcoms to peak at just one episode, another one, one more.. a season..goes on for 2 hrs b4 u realise u ve wasted 6 hrs altogether..
6. get even more stressed out. open lecture notes with a new vigour . " I gotto fight it..win..pass the subject somehow or the other"... mug, mug, mug..mug like crazy ..
7. look at past year probs to practice..just alien figures. turn all notes upside down to find if the prob is in or out of syllabus..no clue. look at other papers, realise its even worse.
8. accept the inevitable fact that u r doomed. go back to watching sitcoms till u fall asleep on top of the laptop. sleeeeeeeeep. beautiful sleeeeeep
repeat the same the next day till u go for the xam..do it pathetic. run to the nearest temple that weekend n start bribing God.
1. waste time choosing the " best " place to study which usually means goin around entire campus with a 4 kg back pack before suffereing from a back ache and settling down at a random useless place.
2. place issue over. 1 hr gone.. too tired to delve into studies now..so, open laptop - check mails ---> check orkut , facebook --->look at latest gossips, friends' albums etc.. 2 hrs productively spent. (at the worst case, some with a creative bent even write blogs about mugging then..)
3. BREAK OVER! come the studyings...open lecture notes, books reluctantly, stare stupidly at it for half hour, verify portions, stare stupidly for some more time and realise u ve become a dumb ass .noooooooooooooooooo.
4. open the gtalk (the one place where the entire cohort hangs around) and bitch about the subject, xams, NUS, singapore, life to evry online character.
5. become too much stressed ..u r freaking out..need a break desparately..open youtube, watch any videos- good, bad, ugly..still not satisfied ..move to sitcoms to peak at just one episode, another one, one more.. a season..goes on for 2 hrs b4 u realise u ve wasted 6 hrs altogether..
6. get even more stressed out. open lecture notes with a new vigour . " I gotto fight it..win..pass the subject somehow or the other"... mug, mug, mug..mug like crazy ..
7. look at past year probs to practice..just alien figures. turn all notes upside down to find if the prob is in or out of syllabus..no clue. look at other papers, realise its even worse.
8. accept the inevitable fact that u r doomed. go back to watching sitcoms till u fall asleep on top of the laptop. sleeeeeeeeep. beautiful sleeeeeep
repeat the same the next day till u go for the xam..do it pathetic. run to the nearest temple that weekend n start bribing God.
Wednesday, April 2, 2008
reality of lost love
A chance encounter in one of my friend's blog set me thinking about this: What do you do when you discover that you don't mean anything to the person you value the most ? Does "true love" actually exist? I am sure most of us would have experienced the first issue..if not they are indeed lucky! Getting emotionally attached to another person is one of basic human nature. The need for companionship along with the increasin sexual jizz creates an urge to involve in a relationship . But on one fine morning, when we realise that we are worth null to the other person, the sense of betrayal either pushes us to extreme anger towards that jackass which is soon followed by self pity and dejection. But is it that bad to reject life in general? Focussing more on self pity and comtemplation of death just gets us to the noose. I was surprised when some one I know stated the pain caused by love failure is greater than death.
I agree I haven't experienced this amount of dejection in all of my 18 years and I am kind of happy for it. But I think its rather stupid to expect "true love" as described in novels or films in the first place. Everyone one is born into this world without their own choice and so every one tries their best to adapt and survive. More than just survival, we want to gain power, compete with others, have more than other people and "achieve" which means doing somehting different that gives you a recognition over others in the world.In order to solve the problem of loneliness throu the way , most of us get married. I , who is getting the life sucked out from me through total lack of interest in my studies and grinding pressure of my univ to force me into it , lack of motivation and sense of inability to do anything worthwhile attest that people plunge into marriage pool just to escape this hell of skool and even more dreaded work life. With all these monsterous things torturing you in life, you find your sole happiness in marriage and voila, there is love.
Some one asked me what is the meaning in life, if there is no one to return your love.. If we all live till the age of 70, making the best out of what we have, we 'll definitely have someone who loves us before we die. if not, we can die being proud about the vast amt of experience ( even if entirely bitter) we have had and how v managed to live throu all that without quitting. In the meanwhile, why worry about it and waste time when we have so much things to explore in this wild jungle!
I agree I haven't experienced this amount of dejection in all of my 18 years and I am kind of happy for it. But I think its rather stupid to expect "true love" as described in novels or films in the first place. Everyone one is born into this world without their own choice and so every one tries their best to adapt and survive. More than just survival, we want to gain power, compete with others, have more than other people and "achieve" which means doing somehting different that gives you a recognition over others in the world.In order to solve the problem of loneliness throu the way , most of us get married. I , who is getting the life sucked out from me through total lack of interest in my studies and grinding pressure of my univ to force me into it , lack of motivation and sense of inability to do anything worthwhile attest that people plunge into marriage pool just to escape this hell of skool and even more dreaded work life. With all these monsterous things torturing you in life, you find your sole happiness in marriage and voila, there is love.
Some one asked me what is the meaning in life, if there is no one to return your love.. If we all live till the age of 70, making the best out of what we have, we 'll definitely have someone who loves us before we die. if not, we can die being proud about the vast amt of experience ( even if entirely bitter) we have had and how v managed to live throu all that without quitting. In the meanwhile, why worry about it and waste time when we have so much things to explore in this wild jungle!
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